WHY ME?

I hate how i am so random on subjects sometimes. i hate how i forget like each second. i hate how i will be like saying something important then forget or when i am trying to think of what i forgot and i see a blank piece of paper in my head.

I only want my way!

I got written up today but usually that teacher doesn't write me up because he says i have a mind control thing i can control his mind. well thats nice is all i say. he tries to talk to me when i tell him not to so i cry WHAT lol.

Back In New Mexico

I wqent to Oklahoma for a couple of days I saw the college I wanted to go to but am not quite sure anymore. I saw camp concslers and it was nice and I felt so happy my heart popped out my ear. lol. no that is too silly. yea i was like am I dreaming?

Uh oh this is bad.

ok i shoukd have just done what i was told. ok well i was in mrs pacheco's class and i was reading ( i know ME read?) (the book was about an abusive father ok) and mrs. pacheco had been reading a story where we were suppose to take notes on and i wasn't paying attention so when she asked for them and i said i didnt do it she is like do u need the book? i am like no. i am not going to do it. then she walked away and was on the phone. she had said katherine go see the counsler i am like why? she is like cuz explain to her why ur not doing ur work in my class and i am like i dont want to go see her. mrs. pacheco is like fine she wiill come get u. i continued to read and then the counsler said katherine come here i shook my head no. so then i guess she alled for luna but wast answering to had to get mr garcia. so then boith luna and garcia were there cuz luna came cuz she heard it on her walkie talkie or whatever. i 4got to mention there was this one boy who gave her attiutude and was absoultly horrible. so ms lun called me and said let's go to my office. then she said wait go in the class let me talk to this adam ( the boy disrupting). so they did and i was now going with her to her office and i told mrs pacheco its not a big deal and she is like it is u havent done any thing the new 9 weeks. i said so it isnt like i am being like adam. i could be but i am not going to be. so mr garcia left and the counsler, principal and i were in the principals office. Luna said why are u acting differently u are usually happy and you were this morning what happened. I am like nothing happened. They are like so what do you want to do? I am like read. So I went in the counslers office to read. I wrote in my journal and then it was lunch time. I had to be escorted who knows why? I stood outside the cafeteria then the person that walked me is like go inside get a tray.I shook my head no and she called Luna. Luna is like u don't want to eat? I said no. Then I started to shake my foot it was getting faster. So luna told the escorter to leave me alone because I am ok there. I was getting angrier. It is cuz basicly I was frozen and that isn't good we will just say. Then a-4 came along thecounsler said for me to stay with her. I wrote her a note about the day about how I don't see how it was a big deal. Then she is like is someone hurting you? I am like no, not anymore and it sorta slipped. About a week before I had told her why I like attention you know unless I am mad I hate it. She had asked me do you want new parents? I am like no I spoke so fast I didn't hear myself think. IT WILL DESTROY MORE THEN WHAT IS ALREADY DESRTOYED is what I think. Then I though maybe ataying with family will do me good but it won't work out I just know it. I dont want to stay woith people I dont know. It is scary. Then paeople tell me to ak these two people but I am like no it is rude I wouldn't want to impose. So I don't know what to do.